my best friend and I about a year and a half ago
I take back all the bad things I have ever said about the treadmill. It's boring, it's hard, it's a pain... I take it all back. Every single word. Saturday morning my marathon buddy talked me into running outside. For starters, it was 29 degrees. TWENTY FREAKIN' NINE!! And I am a big ol' sissy about the cold anyway. I have had sinus issues for years and when my sinuses drain they give me a respiratory infection. I have one about 90 percent of the time. It's not a big deal and it's rarely that bad, but when I run it makes me cough a lot. Add some cold to that and it's poison. I was coughing the entire time. And spitting. I'm super lady like. I can spit across three lanes of traffic. I know you're jealous. I'm pretty sure my lungs still have ice just hanging out in there. On top of that, my muscles never got warm. And we ran ten miles!! How are you still cold after ten miles? Cold muscles=tight muscles. Running hurt so bad!! I was a big whiner and it ended up taking 1:43:54. Lame. My goal was 1:25:00. I was just proud I finished. You can bet my muscles felt awful all weekend. I stretched and stretched but they were just too tight. What I am trying to say is I love the treadmill. It is my new best friend and I will never abandon it again. Ever. Or for a few months until it's like 70 outside. Then I'll have another affair with the pavement. Until then I heart the treadmill.
I did a total of 21 miles last week in 3:11:55. I might have only washed my hair once. And that was Saturday morning, after running a total of 21 miles. My poor husband.
It has never felt as good to run as it did this morning. It felt so good to get up and stretch and use all those tight muscles. They are feeling much better! Four miles in 33:54. I like that time much better. And I even finished up with some core. Go me.
This week is going to be rough. My goal was to get up early and go to the gym every morning, even on rest days to do weights. So far that hasn't happened. I really like to sleep. This week I HAVE to get up early every morning. Tomorrow I have to get up in time to shower and get ready for my interview before work. (That means washing my hair for the second time in a four day span. Miracle.) Your praying for me, right? I am so nervous!! Today, Wednesday, and Thursday are all run days so I have to get up early anyway. Not only do I have to get up early on Friday, but I have to be up by 4:00 am. I might die!! We are going on vacation this weekend and it's like 20 degrees colder there so I have nowhere to run. I'm doing my Saturday run before work on Friday. 11 miles. If getting up at 4:00 doesn't kill me, the 11 miles might. But I'm actually pretty excited. I get off work early on Friday and then I am headed for a much needed get away with my lover. It will include wine tasting and hot pots. And that thought is what is going to get me through the rest of the week.
Not a big fan... sorry. I don't like the new judges. They are too soft and Steven Tyler is a perv. They let a girl with a horrible voice go through, after all telling her no, because she cried!! What! I can cry better than her, can I go to Hollywood? I know, I am a little behind on this, but I just barely had the time to catch up. What do you think? I'm thinking this will be their last season. Bummer. I still liked watching the contestants though. Did you see the one who sounds like Josh Turner?? OMG!! I almost died. Love, love, love him!! And the brown haired girl, she was totally religious and such a goofball? LOVED her. She cracked me up and she has such a fun personality and fabulous voice. So the whole night wasn't a loss, plus I was eating Costa Vida with my buddy. Can't complain! We also had Frogurt for dessert and I taught her dog to say I love you. Dog whisperer, right here. If only my dogs could hear me whisperin'... they have no manners.
I have heard three people say, "It's already Friday??" What? I think what you meant to say is, "It's FINALLLLLLLY Friday!!" Which is it for you, finally or already?
I just realized I can put video on the iPod my lover is getting me. I know a certain ten seasons of a little thing called Friends that will be the first thing on that baby. This is why I love life. Any music recommendations? I have a rough time with music so any ideas would be greatly appreciated!! Who is your favorite to work out to?
Does anybody else hate automatic toilets? Honestly, what were they thinking. The ones at work flush after about 20 seconds. Awesome.
I planned to keep this a total secret because I am nervous enough but then a lot of friends and family found out anyway so I might as well tell ya.... I have a job interview on Tuesday for a job I have been applying for for two years! I'm so excited, and so nervous. Pray for me, pretty please. I will buy you chocolate. Really.
Funny, funny, funny story!! Life makes me laugh. I just went in the bathroom to wash all the oil off my hands and a lady I've never met before walked in to wash her lunch dishes. She looked at me and said hi then turned back to wash, then did a double take. She looked at me all shocked and said, "Oh my gosh! Do you go to Lady Fitness??" I told her I do and she said, "You are that crazy marathon runner girl! Me and my friend Melissa sit and watch you run every morning. We sit and watch the display on your treadmill and can't believe how fast you run for how long! You are such an inspiration. You make it easier to stay motivated!!" Then we talked on and on blah, blah, blah about running and the gym and motivation and she asked about my Vibrams. I was right on not just one, but TWO things. They were checking out my shoes and saying how amazing I am. Plus, I am pretty sure they make fun of the lip syncing, because let's face it, I look like a goofball. But you can't really tell a new person you just met something like that to their face. Muah ha ha! Small world. You know what sucks? I don't care that I look like an idiot at the gym because I don't know those people. Now I do. It's cool. I'll be an idiot as long as I'm runnin' real fast while I do it. And p.s. I don't really think I am amazing... I don't have an ego at all. I am just proud of myself for pushing myself so much on something that is so hard.
By the way, my phone doesn't have the word "nacho" in its predictive text. That's why it's a piece of crap and I need a new phone. Best food ever.
What the freak! I just spell checked and it said "nacho" was wrong too. Something is wrong with the world...
That time we went skydiving!
I don't think the ladies behind me on the stairclimbers realize that I can see them in the mirror in front of us. I don't think they know that I could see them pointing at me and talking. Maybe it's the spandex or the weird shoes. Maybe it's that I lip sync to my ipod to entertain myself while I run. I might even dance a little. I'll just pretend they were saying how amazing I run. "Look at her form!!" "She's at 3 miles and still going strong!" That's probably not how the conversation went... pretend with me, ok? Speaking of my weird shoes, I really heart those things. I haven't worn my knee braces since Christmas and I have never ran this much or this fast in my life. Running is a lot more enjoyable when it's not inflicting pain. It did inflict a little pain the last two days though. My right ankle is getting really sore. I have had issues with it since my accident but it's been rough the last two days. The best part is I can't find my brace. I was 20 minutes late for work because I didn't want to give up on looking for it. I hope it's not the way I am running causing the pain. I hope I'm not doing something wrong. Maybe it's just being overused and needs love in the form of ice packs tonight. And a rest day tomorrow to just lift weights and major core. I'm going to take it easy tonight and watch some American Idol (four hours worth) with my marathon buddy. We'll probably eat ice cream and cry about all the sad stories. We're SUCH girls!! I should probably paint my nails too. They are haggard.
Do you wear perfume to the gym? If you do, we are not friends anymore. The lady next to me wore a whole bottle today. I have miserable allergies that are made a million times worse when I'm gulping for air as I run. Running and sneezing are not fun. I had the hardest time breathing today. Why oh why would you wear perfume to the gym? You are there to stink. I did my 3 miles in 22:49 though. I think I push myself harder when I am not loving it and just want to be done. It's been a rough week for motivation. I don't know if it's the new pillows or what but I just don't want to get out of bed. I need a massage. I can't wait for my foam roller to get here. I hope it's my new best friend.
Remember a while back when I told you a piece of my Halloween costume rolled out from under the seat in my car and I decided it was probably time to clean that thing out? Still haven't done it. Go me. That can be added to the list of the four thousand other things I don't have time for. I don't even feel bad. I get up at 4:45, run, shower but never have time to wash the hair, get ready, work, school, homework, and cakes. I only feel bad for my husband cleaning up after me. He lives with a child. But my car is my space and I'm ok with it being a wreck.
I just placed an order for a subscription of Runner's World. What do you think about it? I've never seen one, but I'm so excited!!! The confirmation said 4-6 weeks. Please don't make the girl with no patience wait that long.
These might make me miss the fall just a little bit.
Our thing is the paring knives. The best knife. We've had like 4 of them and they somehow disappear. I have no idea where they could be going. Maybe my dog is smuggling them in his evil plan to escape. I'm sure the mouse trap to the eye didn't help either. Also, meat thermometers. Those don't disappear but they are always broken. We've never had one last more than a couple months. What's the deal here?
Yesterday was rough speech wise. After the "bagel juice" incident I told somebody to hold on while I found a measuring stick. Ruler. That's the word. And then I realized bagel juice sounds a lot like BeatleJuice so I just want to say it three times fast.
Five miles this morning in 42:16!! It was rough getting out of bed, and obviously I'm not very bright because I made myself do it twice. My favorite thing to do after a run is take a hot shower, then snuggle up in bed. Two hours of sleep would be great. I got 10 minutes before I had to wake back up and brush my teeth for work. Torture.
I need to learn produce better. Like that I need to eat the tomatoes, bananas, and pineapples before the apples and oranges. I always eat the stuff that lasts longer first for some reason so half the stuff goes bad. I'm working on it. I also need to work on the little voice inside my head that says, "You ran today, you can eat whatever you want." Chocolate is usually what I want. Too much sugar makes running rough the next day. I was craving something delish yesterday so I stopped at the store for the essentials. And by that I mean chocolate milk and avocado. I even grabbed two of the delish green things so I could have one with lunch today, so maybe I am a genius after all. Do you always save the biggest section of the grapefruit for last? I assume everyone in the world does that, but I could just be strange.
I got home from work yesterday and the house was 62 degrees. My lover told me it was warm enough. He laughed at me when I told him if he could tell it's cold by lookin' at the girls he better crank the heater. Cold=miserable.
I left my house early today which is a miracle. While rushing around to grab breakfast, I thought to myself, "Where is the bagel juice??" a.k.a. cream cheese. Genius. I left early so I could stop and get gas on my way to work, so that I could read on my lunch break. I pumped my gas and went inside to pay. Standing at the counter I realized that my wallet isn't in my purse. I have no idea where it could be. Awesome. Then I got to work and realized I forgot my lunch on the counter, which means I will be going home for lunch anyways. It's one of THOSE days, but I love it! No wallet gave me a good excuse to call my lover and see if he's seen it, which means I got to hear him tell me he loves me a few more times this morning. And home for lunch means less reading time, but the reading time I do get will be spent on the couch, with my new memory foam pillow. I am in love.
I'm now making it to and from school without the TomTom. I'm growing up so fast.
You know your dog's eyes stick out extremely far when he won't listen as you yell for him to get out of the pantry and his eye ball is the only thing that the mouse trap gets. Poor guy. I tried to warn him.
You know what my favorite things in life are? The little things that just mean the world. Whenever I buy shaving cream I buy the cheapest stuff they have. Last time I ran out I couldn't go to the store with my lover so he bought me some. He got home with the super nice, silky stuff. Putting it on literally feels like rubbing silk on my skin. I told him he didn't have to get the good stuff and he said he'd only get the best for me. What a stud. And now every time I shave my legs (probably not as often as I should) I think of him. I think of how good he is to me and what a sweetie he is. I remember all the reasons I fell in love with and married him. Funny how a little can of shaving cream can make me so happy.
I've always hated gum and I can't get enough of it the last couple days. What's the deal!!
I have this genius idea of recording my voice saying my vocab words and the definitions and putting it on my ipod (when I get it) and listening to it all day at work. Does anybody know if this is possible? And maybe how? I'm horrible with iTunes.
How's your day going?
What are some little things that just make you so happy??
How do you do it? Seriously! I can't go an entire day without spilling on myself. When my husband found out my family was doing chili for our family party last night he asked me why I was wearing white. How sad. And true. It was such a bad idea. Before I had even touched the chili my mom walked up to me and told me I had chili on my shirt. Right under the girls, where I couldn't see it. I don't even know how that happened!! Then I got my bowl of chili and when I put a spoonful of sour cream in it, it splashed in and covered me in chili. Twice. I ended up eating in my uncle's t-shirt. I really think I might be four. And I just don't get how somebody can make it an entire day without getting something on themselves. It's impossible!! Speaking of the family party... I drew blood five times! I kind of hate doing it on family though. It's a lot scarier when it's on people you know. Besides that, my family is obnoxious in a funny kind of way and we all like to tease each other. Well teasing me while I am sliding a needle into my mother's vein is not funny to me and it makes me nervous. I did good but I was really shaky. I got blood on everyone on my first try though, even with the shakes!! I'll get better. It's still just a little freaky doing that to someone. It'll be nice when it is just the norm.
I'm such a sucker! I slept through my alarm today. But I don't even feel bad because I fell asleep at 4:00 am. These nightmares will be the death of me. So I totally missed my morning run. Bummer. So I will be making that up tomorrow since I have school tonight. We have a huge test and I am soooo nervous. It was canceled last week and had more added to it so it's going to be HUGE!! I am excited for Saturday. The news says "abundant sunshine." Let's hope they are right and it doesn't change. I would love love love to run outside this weekend. I'm still in the process of changing gyms... it's taking long enough!!
I cannot believe it's Monday already. What happened to that weekend? It flew! I wish nights and weekends went by as slow as the work day. I feel like time is slipping away from me and I really hate it. I don't know if I'll ever feel like we get enough time in this wonderful life. It has most definitely been a Monday though. Everything has been hectic and crazy. I haven't spilled on myself though. Yet. I think what I miss the most at work, besides my lover, is my wedding ring. It's so nice to be able to wear it for two whole days, then I come back to this place and my left hand feels just a little weird.
How has your Monday been?
I picked up my Bountiful Basket yesterday and I'm not totally thrilled. I usually eat only that for two weeks for breakfast and lunch but they replace oranges with pears this week and I don't like those. Darn! It sucks on weeks when you don't get things you'll use. Like brussel sprouts. Gag. But everything else is pretty awesome! Plus there was a little girl there selling Girl Scout cookies. I have some major love for those things. Samoas? Get in muh bellay!! Mmmm! I almost killed my sister over a box one time. My own flesh and blood. I was dieting for my wedding and hadn't had sugar in months. (Horrible idea. I will never go without sugar again.) I had three Samoas left that I got to eat when I got down to my goal weight. It was my treat and when I told her she couldn't eat them she thought I was joking. I might have jumped over two couches and the island in the kitchen to tackle her. It got a little intense but it was totally worth it. My family knew I was crazy but my fiance was just realizing the extent of it. And he STILL married me. Sucker :-) My cookies will be here in like a month and a half!!
I have a slight purse addiction and I'm dying to buy another one. My new years resolution was not to spend any of my money on a purse all year. It seemed a lot more doable when I thought I was getting a new one for Christmas but I got a laptop instead. I usually get a new purse every couple months... this might be the death of me.
I got my hair done after running eight miles yesterday. My poor hair lady. She took it like a champ though. She didn't even complain. I think I've gotten to a new low... blow drying my sweat. That's not awkward at all.... but I figured dry sweat was better than her having to do it while it was still wet. Judge me. I stood up to leave and slipped on some of my hair that she cut off. My snow boots are ridiculously slippery!! It's a good thing I can laugh at myself. If you don't laugh at yourself I think you're missing the point.
Eight miles yesterday in 1:07:08!!!!! Followed by an ice bath. I kind of hate those things but they really do help. I did a total of 19 miles this week in 2:40:26!! My lover told me yesterday that he is going to get me an ipod for my birthday and just give it to me early so I have it for the marathon. He spoils me!!
I hate my job. I complain about it a lot so I figured I would tell you why so you don't just think I'm a big fat whiner. I am a whiner, but not that bad! I work for a company that supplies parts to other companies. I'm what's called an "on site employee." So I am employed by the supplier, working at the suppliee. That's probably not really a word. Go with it. When anything happens, if anybody is mean to me, if there is any drama at all, I have to play super nice and smile and act like I'm happy to keep my company looking good. Plus, it's easier for the place I work at to call the company I work for and request a new employee than it is for them to replace one of their own. There is this mean lady that works here that always tries to get me fired. I'm not just being a whiner, she is mean to everyone. She will tell me she wants something done and she doesn't need it right now but it would be nice to have. So I do what HAS to be done first since her stuff isn't a priority. Then she tells her boss that I am not doing my job, I don't do anything but sit around and screw off. So then her boss gets the vice president of the company involved, who calls my supervisor here, and my supervisor in Texas. Then they come to me and ask me what's going on, I explain it, I'm not in trouble and everything is all good again. But it gets old and it causes drama. It's just frustrating. Then this mean woman is mad so she does things to mess with me like throwing my stuff around and rearranging my desk. I am also in charge of shipping all of my parts too. A lady in Mexico asked for "a bag" of a certain part. Well 60 pieces of that particular part come in a bad so I sent it to her. Then I get this e-mail that is circulating asking what is going on from about three people who went on this rant about how I am not doing my job, they requested 500 pieces, they were shocked and I'm holding up production. Awesome. I save everything so I had the original e-mail. I forwarded it to everyone involved and everything was fine, I was never in trouble. Again, it's just frustrating. And this is what I deal with EVERY day. For three and a half years. Because I am not employed here, I am the easiest target to blame so I get hit with a lot of blame, and waste a lot of time proving that I am actually doing my job. So when I complain, this is why. Rant over.
Date night was so much fun! We went to Costa Vida and I got a salad smothered in guac, chile verde, and pico. Heaven. The mango salsa was too sweet though. I hate sweet food. Sweet belongs in dessert, not in my burrito. Then I kicked his butt at some arcade games. I am ridiculously good at arcade games, and I'd never even played one until I met my lover. Plus, I am amazing at free throws so I dominate at pop a shot. We had so much fun!!
I really need to download the pictures from my camera and start uploading more recent pictures. I always just use whatever computer is available. My work computer only has our engagements and our home computer has everything else minus the last like six months. I need to get a flash drive so I can always keep current pics with me. I'm workin' on it.
Things that make me happy today: friday, pay day, peanut butter, the snooze button on my phone going off and unlimited number of times instead of twice like my old phone, my husband, I just officially registered for the marathon, I booked our hotel for the marathon!! I'm so so so excited I could throw up.
Have you ever heard of Groupon? Holy amazing deals. Seriously. Check it out. Thank me later. Or maybe I'm a little behind the times and this is old news to you? Whateva.
Everyone always tells me this picture reminds them of Twilight. I think it's the meadow, the girl with dark hair, and the sexy pale guy. Except he doesn't sparkle. And I don't think Robert P. is good lookin'. Sorry. When I read the books it's always somebody different in my head. He just doesn't fit. And if I am being honest most of them don't. I kind of really hate the movies. The books were amazing though! I'm one of those weirdos that would much rather read the book than watch the movie. I am dying to read I Am Number Four before it comes out in theaters. But I still haven't even finished the second Outlander book, I still have my brand new Girl With A Dragon Tattoo that my lover bought me months ago, and a gigantic phlebotomy book. School is really cutting into my personal reading time. I'm not really sure why I need to know every detail about the entire body to draw somebody's blood, but I won't complain because I love that stuff. It's so interesting. Anyway... what got me thinking of Twilight was the frost on the cars this morning. When the light shines on them and make the cars look all glittery like diamonds, this is what I imagine Edward looks like. And Emmet. Now Emmet I can get on board with.
When you ask for a handful of ketchup or hot sauce and they give you three packets, do you wonder how small their hands are too? I kind of want to punch them. It might be a little drastic... but why do they have to be so stingy?? Same with ranch at restaurants. When I ask for extra and they bring me like enough for one tomato... what's wrong with the world, huh?
Sometimes I go a few days without causing personal body injury and I think maybe I'm finally outgrowing my clumsiness. Then yesterday I stuck a razor blade through the webbing between my thumb and forefinger and realized that I'm just always going to be this way.
I have never had this problem before... but working out this much makes me feel like I stink more. Like I shower as soon as I am done, but after about eight hours I feel like I need another shower even after just sitting at my desk all day. I need to shower twice a day and it's driving me crazy. I might just be paranoid, but does this happen to you?
I really like before and after pictures. They are my favorite pictures to look at. Before and after for anything. I'm not picky.
My favorite part of movies is at the end when they play the little captions of what happens to each person in the next like ten years or whatever. I like to know what happened after the movie is over. And sequels always suck. Except I am DYING for the sequel to Avatar. Don't let me down, pretty, pretty please!!
Today was a three mile day and I did it in 24:43. I know I may not be able to keep that pace on distance runs, but I would love to be able to keep short runs (anything 10 miles and under) at like seven minute miles. And someday six minute miles. That would be awesome. I'm getting there.
In case you don't remember, tonight is DATE NIGHT!! I'm so excited. I don't remember the last time we got all dressed up and went out just the two of us. We go out all the time but it's usually with friends and/or family. Alone time is very much needed. He even planned it all by himself and won't tell me what we are doing because it's a surprise. You know I love surprises!
What are you up to this weekend?
I'm in love with food. It is the highlight of the day. I think I might like sauce more than the actual food. Have you ever had the white sauce from Greek Garden? To die for!! Seriously! My biggest obsession is hot sauce. There is only one kind that I will eat but I put it on everything. So delish. My lover thought he'd seen it all until he watched me put it on my mashed potatoes last night instead of gravy. He might have asked to eat in the other room, but I told him we must eat as a family. On the floor at our coffee table. While watching TV and getting licked by two rotten dogs begging for food. That's how everyone eats, right? This is my tomato sandwich I just ate for lunch. Tomato chunks, a little bit of mayo with olive oil, a little bit of mustard, and of course, hot sauce. I also am obsessed with super messy foods. Carl's Jr. slogan is my motto. If it doesn't get all over the place, it doesn't belong in your face. Words to live by. So I cut my roll in half then dug out the bread on the bottom half so it was just a shell and filled it. I'm basically a genius. And most days I'd kill for a spoonful of peanut butter. I've been an emotional mess (I hate being a girl) so my lover asked if he could take me out to dinner tomorrow night. That guy sure knows how to cheer me up. Alone time and food... it doesn't get any better!!
Running was horrible this morning. I just had an off day. After 0.62 miles I was sitting on the ground with my head between my legs trying not to pass out. What a girl!! After that it just became about finishing and less about time. Five miles. My goal was 43 min. I got 46:15. But I finished!! I might have reached for the "stop" button at miles 2, 3 and 4.5. But I decided to not be mad and have a better day tomorrow. Today has actually been a fabulous day. Time is flying by and I only have four hours left of work. I know most people eat more when they run, but on my run days, eating is the last thing I want to do. I eat a lot less on run days and sometimes I have to make myself eat. Which is weird because I would have married food long ago if it was legal. I do drink about 20 bottles of water though. My water bottle is all cute and green. I luff it. I get attached to the weirdest things... I have been loving running so much more when I am doing it to focus on training and not weight loss. It's rough when you are doing it because you aren't happy with yourself. A day like today would have been a huge set back and I would have felt awful about myself for a week. And since I have refused to get on a scale or focus on it... the weight is coming off so much faster! My bra is getting too big around on the band part and this morning when I looked in the mirror I was shocked to see such a drastic change in my waist. I never notice changes on myself! I am LOVING this marathon already!!
I got my shots for school yesterday. What a horrible, rotten thing to do. I HATE shots. I'd much rather have blood drawn than something pumped into me. It hurt SO BAD! And my lungs are still killing me (like in a ridiculous way) from my run this morning so I am wondering if it's a side effect from the TB test or something. Maybe it's just all in my head?
Happy Wednesday!!!
**By the way... I do NOT think I am fat or overweight. I just have a few problem areas on my body that I am trying slim down and tone up. Don't think I'm crazy like most people do. You get it, right?
My four inch tall stack of flash cards I have to have memorized by tomorrow. That's not even all of them. Cry for me. And then pray for me. I need it.
It always feels like this marathon is so soon. And then I sit down and realize it's three months away. Three. Which means I need to calm down and breathe and stop stressing so much about all the things that need to be done. I still need to get my matching shirt, a camelbak, ipod holder, leggings that match my matching shirt, and a foam roller. The foam roller because The Hungry Runner Girl ALWAYS talks about hers and it sounds amazing! I also need to book a hotel. My marathon buddy and I decided we are going to stay in a hotel so we don't have to wake up at 3 in the morning. However, we might not be able to even sleep so waking up may not be a problem :-) The cheapest place I can find is an Anniversary Inn for just over a hundred dollars. Yep, I'm going to be checking into the Anniversary Inn with another girl. Have I ever mentioned I LOVE getting weird looks? It's so much fun. So you can bet I plan to tell the man behind the desk that we are newly weds. We won't even have to act giddy because of the high from the marathon the next day. Could this marathon get any better?? I'm LOVING it. Ok so my total time for last week... 17 miles in 2:36:06. Not too bad. But I need to keep pushing. We have a 26 mile week February 7-13. I am going to get my time from that whole week and my goal for the marathon will be that or better. Yesterday I did my three miles in 23:20 which is 3:30 faster than my last 3 miler!! I'm thrilled about that. I ran so fast because I was going to puke though. My sweet husband made me way too big of a lunch and I shouldn't have eaten it all. I thought I was going to die. One more reason to run in the mornings. I even took an ice bath last night. It wasn't as miserable as I thought. Once you go numb you don't even feel it! But I was so cold all night. My hips are feeling better though. I reallllly need to start stretching more!! I think the ice bath will be a Saturday tradition. Those are my long distance days so what better day to do it.
This weekend is going to be hectic. I'm getting another Bountiful Basket (so excited), getting my dog groomed, getting my hair done, cleaning my house, and it's the final week of playoffs. Plus, promise not to laugh? My family CHRISTMAS party. Yeah, Christmas. And I couldn't be more excited!! Better late than never right?
Or do you do this too?? When I am watching a video on a phone or laptop and the camera isn't very steady, or there is just something out of view that I want to see, I move the phone (or laptop) trying to get it in the viewfinder. It makes me laugh every time!
I wrote down my time for the entire week of running but it's at home and I am too lazy to go back through the blog and look at times to give you a total so I'll do it tomorrow :-) I ran 17 miles last week! My calves and hips are feeling it too. I'm going to try an ice bath tonight. It sounds so miserable and I'm a little scared! I was up until 2:30 this morning doing homework so when the alarm went off at 4:45 I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed. It just sounded so awful. So I am going to the gym after work. Getting up early to run is so rough because I really love my bed, but do you know what's even worse? Dreading it all day. It's actually nice to get it done and over with for the day. I never thought I'd say that getting up early was better. I'm losing it.
The game yesterday was actually a lot of fun! Until I got in trouble. I brought my blood draw supplies to practice on my sister. We were going to do it in the bathroom but then my sister didn't come. My brother in law told me to do it on him, but we can't really go in a bathroom together. My teacher is a traveling phlebotomist so she does it at restaurants all the time, so I didn't even think about it bothering anyone. It doesn't help that the restaurant was in the ghetto of Ogden, but the manager ran up and asked what I'd just shot him up with. Oops!! And then ten minutes later four cops walked in and I thought I was going to pass out. They just wanted some lunch though :-) Lesson learned. I have about 800 flashcards I have to memorize by Wednesday. For once I am not even being dramatic either. I don't know how I am going to do this!! I hate medical terminology. I don't get why they can't just say "forearm." Everyone knows what that means. Yet they insist we say antebrachial. I think? And then they complain that we need to make sure we don't use medical terms with the patient. What is the freakin' point? Lets all just talk the same. I'm fine with forearm. Is that ok with you??
What gets us going in the morning.
I always hear runners say that they are more tired and not as happy on their rest days. Maybe that was my issue yesterday. Or maybe I just needed a day. Who knows. But I'm cheered up now. Yesterday to cheer myself up I reminded myself it was Friday, listened to Alanis Morissette, took a hot bath, hung out with my lover, and slept. And when none of that worked I had to take a Xanax. I tried really hard not to, but I tried everything I can think of, and swore I'd make today a better day. I got up early and went to the gym. It opened late AGAIN but I'm not letting that bug me today. I ran seven miles in 1:01:15. My goal was one hour and three min. I am super excited!! Now I am going to shower and eat frogurt for breakfast with my marathon buddy. Then we are going to sit at her house and play Donkey Kong on the wii until my lover gets off work. That's right. I have downtime!! AMAZING!! But I do really need to do homework to so I will probably do that most of the evening while we watch TV.
When you get to the bottom of the bag of chips and it's all crumbs and you can't pick them out, do you tip the bag back and "drink" the crumbs? No? Me either... No, I really do. And it's delish.
Would you be bummed if your husband wasn't coming to your marathon or am I just a spoiled brat? I guess I always pictured crossing that finish line and seeing his smiling face. And him all proud of me. But whatever, I am doing it for me. I can't let that get me bummed or I am going to hate this.
You know the song "Head Over Feet" by Alanis Morissette? That's more of mine and my lover's song. Most people have these mushy gushy songs that describe their relationship. We do now and we are mushy gushy and gross. We make people sick all the time. But in the beginning it was like that. It was an accident. It was "don't be surprised if I love you, for all that you are. I couldn't help it. It's all your fault." I think that might have been the greatest unplanned thing in the history of the world. I reallllllly love that guy. See, I am making you sick already. Have a fabulous day!!!
I miss my red hair.
I'm not blogging today. Well I guess technically I am. But it doesn't count, ok? I am having a horrible, awful day and if I post I'll probably just be negative and a big fat whiner so I'll just hope you're having a better day than me!! I keep reminding myself it's Friday to try and cheer myself up. Hopefully it'll work, and fast.
Tell me something awesome and cheer me up?
I have blisters all over my feet. Heels, toes, arches... breaking in shoes blows. I am hoping they'll be good to go within a week.
I wasn't a very happy girl yesterday. The gym opened late, they told me that to cancel my membership I have to pay $446. I complained when I thought it was $200. My family stresses me out. Where my tendon was hit is becoming a huge bruise. I had a head ache AND I am getting a cold sore. Blah. I'm feeling better today though. I did three miles in 26:50 That's almost three minutes faster than my 29:47 on Monday. That's almost a minute off per mile. Yay!! I came up with a plan for the gym, we'll see how it works out. I'm going to check out a 24/7 gym today. I can go ANY time I want. Like at two in the morning when my insomnia is making me crazy. And I decided to just relax about my family and see what happens. Easier said than done, but I'm trying!
Do you ever crave things you don't like? I always crave pancakes and apple pie and I don't like either. And oatmeal. Is that odd?
I'm sick of high school kids talking like babies and calling me "dude." Really? The next person that tells me "non-night dude" is getting punched in the head.
I'm so sick of the cold, but once winter is over how will I justify wearing leggings and snow boots? Please don't make me go back to jeans. I can't handle it.
You know what's crazy... my lover has started going to the gym. So weird!! He has been anti-exercise since... well, forever. But he has been going. I kind of feel bad though... I'm wondering if it's because on Christmas I looked at the sweats my mom got him and told him it was a good thing he has a scrawny little butt. I like his scrawny little butt. But I guess guys don't like being called scrawny? I told him he could tell me I was chubby if it made him feel better, but he was a good sport and said he didn't care. And every other minute he now shows me his massive legs and booty. He flexes and struts... I'm one lucky girl. Do you know we've been hitched for seven months today? Wow!
Do you watch American Idol? I won't lie... I am dying for it to come on!! I'm bummed it's on school nights but my mom and Jamie said they'd DVR it for me and we can do Idol night on Thursdays. It's a date! That's the only thing I watch that's embarrassing though. I must be a weird girl because I hate reality TV and I couldn't care less about celebrity's personal lives. I'm sure most of you are calling me a sinner right now... sorry.
Do you think it's weird when girls ask everybody what color they should dye their hair? For some reason I do. Maybe it's because I'm a control freak and would never let somebody else pick something like that for me. But I really like choosing myself. And choosing for someone else is scary. What if it looks bad and it's all your fault!!
I didn't wash my car one time last year. Not once. I feel bad for her and I promised to do it in the spring. Poor baby.
I always hear people say things like, "Remember when your biggest worry was learning how to tie your shoes? What happened to those days. I wish I could go back." But I just don't get it. I'd take this over that. I'd take today over anything from the past. I LOVE my life. It's hectic and crazy and good, sometimes a tiny bit of bad... but it's MINE. It's my crazy, my hectic, my good, and my bad. I love every second of it. But maybe it's because I had a horrible childhood. It seems most things were kinda horrible until I met my lover. So for me, this is the time of my life. This is the simplicity I always want to be in. It's seems to be the equivalent of everyone else's childhood. Except with bills and stuff :-) Even Josh said the other day he missed being 12 and sometimes he wishes he could go back. At first I was sad because I felt like he'd prefer that over me. Then I was jealous because being 12 was a nightmare for me. But then I was just happy for him. I'm glad he has things like that to look back on and smile. When he tells me about them I can't help but smile. My childhood made me never want kids. Ever. But knowing it could be so good... maybe it wouldn't be so bad to be a parent. I could give my kiddo the childhood I never had. Maybe doing so would make me feel better about my own childhood. If I have a daughter we are totally making hopscotch out of duct tape on the carpet when it's too cold to play outside. I've just always wanted to do that. Maybe I'll do it anyway, just for me!! How do you decide if you want a baby? It's such a HUGE decision!! I can barely decide if I dare to quit my job and get a new one because it's so long term... ha!
Speaking of childhood... when I was little we moved into a dingy old apartment. I think I was four or five and the only thing I remember was the way it smelled. It smelled like wet paint, but I didn't know it was that. I remember my mom freaking out about a cockroach so I always thought the smell was the the smell of cockroaches. So now every time I smell paint I think of cockroaches. They are painting at my work... I have been paranoid all week!!
My husband's team plays my dad's team on Sunday. Playoffs. Loser is out of the running for the Superbowl. My life is a little intense right now. My dad has threatened to drop Josh if he gets in his face... it's about to get real people. Call me crazy but I am thinking about letting my lover go to the sports restaurant alone... I don't think I can take the death stares across the table. And I know he will be making me wear a Bears jersey. He already told me I have to root for the Bears... apparently it was in the wedding vows.
My hands are hot pink from dying fondant last night. Awesome. Seriously, it kind of pretty. In a your-hands-look-freakishly-burned kinda way.
My teacher wants to show the class how to roll a vein off a tendon tonight using my arm. Oh good, it hurts so bad that wearing long sleeves kill me and you want to press your thumb into it and roll it around. I can't wait... But!! Those who know what they are doing (me) are allowed to bring home needles tonight to practice!! We're friends right? Can I practice on you?
I'm not very thrilled this morning... the gym opened 20 minutes late!! I am canceling and going somewhere else. This place is closed way too long for holidays, they open late, I was late for work... blah!! I even HAD to wash my hair this morning so it was the worst day for them to do this. I hope they don't try to make me pay the $200 cancelation fee. I will freak out. 4 miles 38:14
This is my study guide for veins. It seemed like a genius idea. I woke up with it all over my stomach. Good thing it came off before the test.
My marathon buddy, Jamie, let me use her iPod until I get one myself. We spent Sunday night downloading songs to it. I got to the gym yesterday and my ear phones didn't work. Dang it!! So now I will be ear phone shopping. I need some that hook behind the ear because my ears sweat and make normal ones slip out. Whose ears sweat? Seriously!
I am still having nightmares and still not sleeping. The sleep specialist was booked three months though so I have about a month and a half left til I go see him.
My husband offered to get me some Comet Bleach for Valentine's Day. I think that was a hint, how about you? Whateva.
I am soooo excited for Josh's birthday. Seriously. I've been dying to give him this gift FOREVER! I still have like six and a half months.
My knee pain is back. It didn't hurt during running but it hurt after. Please don't let this be a pattern.
ZaeLia is doing great and all healed up from surgery. She is back to being her normal, crazy self. Usually when she slams my knees it's from behind. Yesterday it was from the front and I thought I was going to die. I wonder why my knees hurt...
School is going great! I still haven't missed a vein. I hate to brag... but I am REALLY good at this!! It is scary though because a lot of people take this as a big joke. They screw around and don't study. I missed eight on our test yesterday. I wanted to cry until I found out everyone else missed over 20. It was HARD! Oh and last night my tendon got stabbed. I almost passed out and puked, all at the same time. Today it's swollen and it hurts to move it. Oh and I am not allowed to have nails for phlebotomy. Blah! I have had them since I was 14 because my natural nails are so thin they always tear and bleed.
When I get nervous I chew on the inside of my lips and cheek. I am always scared that I am going to get in a car accident and bite all the way through it.
Jamie and I are getting matching marathon shirts. We are gonna be THOSE people. I can't wait!!
I am still using my TomTom to get to and from school. Judge me. I'm awful with directions. And I need a name for my TomTom. Tom just seems so unoriginal. Ideas?
My eye lashes are getting so long! I can't wait to show you in a few months! It seems every time I pluck my eyebrows I go thinner and thinner. So then I have like an awkward three month stage of letting them grow back in and they look horrible. If you see me lookin' like an orphan, that is why. Speaking of eyes, mine hasn't stopped twitching in a month. Know any cures?
I saw a picture of a grilled cheese and tomato sandwich. I'd never had one so that is what I made for dinner last night. I absolutely love tomatoes and grilled cheese and tomato soup is one of my favorite meals. Add tomato to the sandwich... I died and went to Heaven. Where has it been all my life?? Too bad my lover wasn't as fond of it. Poor guy, always having to deal with my weird things. And give me directions to get anywhere. I wonder if that's why he gave me my Tom.
You know what's nasty? Cold produce. Sick, sick, SICK.
I really need to make more time to study. Things just get so hectic and I forget. I had time to read all my chapters and make flash cards, but I need to study them over and over. I do have all the veins in the arms and hands though, so that's a start. And a few here and there throughout the body. Now I need to memorize the other half of my vocabulary words. I have about 200 already. I am excited for school tonight. I really like poking people. It's so exciting when you see blood fill that tube!! Maybe I'm a little twisted. Love me though it. I'll have to show you my study guide... it's so funny. I don't have time to upload it today though. I better go shower, I probably stink! And I have to leave for work in 20 minutes.
Training went great today! It was just a three mile day. 3 miles in 29 min. and 47 sec. I have been trying to do 3 miles in 30 minutes for two years... I should have done this a long time ago!! I need to get to at least 3.3 in 30 minutes though to make my goal. Tomorrow is a weight day.
All of this for $19.50!! I LOVE Bountiful Baskets.
makes me feel better about myself. weight loss. to calm my horrible anxiety. keeps my blood sugar levels under better control. don't know why but it keeps me in a good mood all day. makes me on time to work because I am not rolling out of bed ten minutes before I have to leave. it's a good way to see the world. it always feels like an accomplishment and I am proud of myself. it keeps me motivated to get other things done. makes me feel better about my future health. bragging rights.
I hope this marathon doesn't make my calves any bigger. They are huge!! We went hunting and my lover bought me some wool socks. I had to grab them and pull as hard as I could to stretch the tube part out enough to fit over my calves. His were falling off of him. I bought my sisters Christmas socks and told them good luck putting them on. The top piece wasn't stretchy and mine tore. Again, theirs were falling off. They were jealous.
Confessions:
I haven't scrubbed my shower since before the wedding (in June.) I'm lucky if I have time to shower myself. Cleaning it is out of the question.
Most the time I wash a load of laundry four times before I remember it in time to throw it in the dryer.
I was thinking it'd been a few weeks since I'd cleaned out my car. Then the apple from my Halloween costume rolled out from under the seat and I noticed my dress covered in blood on the backseat. I guess it's been a while.
I want to punch a wall right now. Not out of anger or anything. I'm just curious if I could put my fist through a wall for some reason. I'll wait... the walls at work are cinder blocks.
I haven't washed my hair since Tuesday. You're shocked, I know.
The second time I took Littles back to the vet was because she wouldn't eat and her incision was splitting back open. I was scared her guts were going to spill out which made my husband laugh, but seriously, it could happen! She had a huge rash too but I just assumed that was razor burn. I can believe they shaved her stomach!! She didn't eat for two days after surgery so I called my vet and they told me to try boiled chicken and eggs. They meant for a day or two but I just did it all week. I decided it was time for her to be back on kibble but she wouldn't eat it. After two days I was worried so I took her to the animal ER. I was taken to a room to wait for the vet and Littles kept trying to climb in my lap, pulling me off the chair. When the vet walked in I was sitting on the floor with my 70 pound dog half on my lap and resting her head on my chest. The vet said my dog was spoiled, so I asked Littles what she thought. Naturally. Of course she disagreed. Then the vet pointed out I was sitting on the floor with her. Doesn't everybody do that?? She said the incision looked normal, but the rash was an allergic reaction to the stitches and gave me pills for it. She told me Lia was spoiled and was just working me because she'd rather have chicken and eggs than her kibble and to stop giving her broth instead of water. I covered Lia's ears so she couldn't hear the mean things the horrible woman said. I asked the vet, "So basically I am paying you $150 to tell me something already knew?" Come on, I KNEW that not everyone made their dogs scrambled eggs every day. Irritated that somebody would have the guts to tell my baby that to her face I stormed out to my car. I opened my phone and had a message from my husband saying to text when I was on my way home so he could warm the electric blanket for her and start her eggs so they were ready when we got home. I busted up laughing. Maybe the vet had a point? Then Lia started throwing herself into my door and glove box because she was so mad I had taken her back to the horrible place that gutted her. I yelled at her and she gave me a dirty look and tore up my carpet. She is so cute.
That picture is the day I brought her home from the breeder's. It's why her name is Littles. She was about eight pounds and the sweetest puppy that ever existed. How could I not spoil her? I only wish she'd realize she wasn't that small anymore. And that it hurts a little when she runs into my legs to knock me on the ground so she can snuggle.
Throwing our palm frond and coconut into the ocean to end our ceremony.
I just signed up for my first marathon. The Salt Lake City marathon on April 16. I am SO excited! This is something I have always wanted to do! I start training on Monday. This will keep me motivated to train. I really want to LOVE running, but so far it's just ok. Maybe I don't like it because I am so busy that to do it I have to get up at 4:00 am. Who knows. I do like sleep though. I am trying to focus on enjoying running and accomplishing a goal more than the weightloss side of it because I think if I focus on the latter I will just get frustrated. My goal is four hours. That might change after I start training if I think I can do it faster. That's about six and a half miles in an hour. I am hoping to be faster, but it's only 13 weeks away and I don't want to push too hard. Besides that I am still breaking my Vibrams in.
Currently I am eating a huge bowl on Cinnamon Life. I ate my lunch and breakfast for breakfast... oops. I don't know what it is about Thursdays but I just can't ever consume enough food. And it's already Thursday! What!! This week has been the fastest one in a long time. Maybe it's because I started school. This whole doing-something-with-my-life thing feels good. It's like it's impossible to not be happy.
I promised to tell you about school... Holy freaky!! Not the actual blood drawing. That was actually a blast. In a sick, twisted way. I can't get enough of it. Can I poke you? Pretty please? I am real good. So the first class went like this... I got there 10 minutes late after leaving 15 minutes early. Yeah, I was frustrated. Then I got there and everyone had books so I asked the teacher for mine and she said we were supposed to buy it ahead of time. Nice. Me and two other girls were all told it would be given to us in class. So I ran to the bookstore and grabbed on... $70. Not bad, but after you'd been told you'd already paid for it it was a little annoying. The teacher assigned homework that needed to be done by Wednesday which was four chapters of reading. Then she handed out supplies and told us to start sticking each other. No joke. No demonstration or anything. It was madness!! I was very particular about who I let poke me. I made sure it was a girl that washed her hands like we were all supposed to--only three people did--and who seemed confident. Didn't even hurt. And I HATE needles. Then I turned around and drew on somebody else. I've done it four times so far and have gotten the vein perfectly every time. No misses, no probing... I'm basically pro. So really, can I stick you?? Just kidding. It's illegal to have needles until I am certified. And being back at school was so fun it helped me decide what career I want. Radiology. I am hoping to start in May. I will be as long as I can get into the program!!
This is my first post in 2011! Actually it's my first post in about a week. Sorry, life happened and it got crazy!! I haven't even had time to read other people's blogs. Or get on Facebook or Twitter. Occasional status updates from the phone and that is it. I even have a new phone because the A button on my Blackberry somehow disappeared. Weird. I ran in my Vibrams last week and I didn't even have to wear my knee braces. It was fabulous!! Although this 9 degree weather is killing the knees today. The biggest reason I disappeared is ZaeLia. Her surgery didn't go well and we have been back to the vet three times. Today was the latest, and hopefully last time. She was allergic to her stitches and her belly swelled up and got all nasty. It smells horrible. Even before that though she refused to eat or drink. I laid on the couch with her and snuggled most of the week. Also, the cake that was due Wednesday was a disaster. I had my first failed cake and it felt horrible. I worked 17 hours straight though and came up with something fabulous! I will post it soon. I hope. Since it was my last cake for a few weeks I decided I better be a good wife and clean. I SCRUBBED my house. Floors, walls, cupboards. I haven't done that since like July. Shhh... it's our little secret. I also went school shopping, had an all girl's day for the first time probably ever, laid on the couch wrapped in my electric blanket a lot, saw TWO movies. All in one week. Amazing. I am sad because I missed my friend Alex's wedding. That was Lia's worse day and I was too scared to leave her. Sorry girl!! My little break from the internet was nice! But now I miss it. I'm sure you missed me too. I totaly planned on updating yesterday but then I left my power cable for my laptop at home and it died. It was a Monday for sure. It got better though. I went scrub shopping on lunch yesterday and got the cutest scrubs!! And spent WAY too much. Those things are addicting. And I also started school. I'll tell you more about that tomorrow though because this is getting long.
I have been eating TERRIBLY (or deliciously, it depends on who you ask. Terrible is my doctor's word, but she is a fun hater.) since Thanksgiving. Lots and lots of food and candy. And I have loved every second of it but now it's time to reach my goals. Two pant sizes by my birthday. May 1. That gives me four months to get it done. I am really excited! I can't wait to be able to run outside again. Come on Spring!! Spring is my favorite! I have also been using LiLash to grow my eyelashes longer. I have been using it for a week and a half and they are already doubled in length. Seriously! They almost touch my eyebrows. I didn't think it'd work so fast. I took before pictures and I will take after pictures when my bottle is gone around the beginning of May to show you.
Enough about me... how have you been??
